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Wrestling with God: Stories of Doubt and Faith

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Autumn in the Garden, When Sensible Plants Pack It In for the Winter . . . And a Healing Ankle

Autumn in the garden where, like it or not, the seasons impose their wills on every living thing. Photo by Barbara Newhall

Autumn in the garden where, like it or not, the seasons impose their wills on every living thing. Photo by Barbara Newhall

By Barbara Falconer Newhall

I took these photos of my favorite up-north garden last October. It’s a genuine four-season garden in the upper Midwest, complete with winter snow, spring promise, and unsurpassed summer glory. It’s also got autumn, with all the grim stuff that happens as winter sets in — death, rot, shrivel and retreat.

But during a late afternoon visit last October there were still some signs of stubborn life — opulent red berries and a succulent with in-your-face magenta blossoms.

A Dying Garden and a Healing Ankle

I’m just now getting around to posting these autumn in the garden photos because the project fell by the wayside last November when Jon broke his [Read more…]

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What I Really Wanted for My Birthday

Large terra cotta pots by Berkeley ceramicist Nancy Selvin. 2013-2015, Photo by Barbara Newhall

A birthday visit to Nancy Selvin’s studio and her large terra cotta pots. Photo by Barbara Newhall

By Barbara Falconer Newhall

“What do you want for your birthday,” Jon wanted to know.

A biggish birthday was coming up, one that ended with a five. I figured Jon was good for an equally biggish birthday present.

“Well, I need a new computer,” I ventured.  “And a new [Read more…]

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The Shame of Aging: The Big Seven-Five Has Finally Arrived

Experiencing the shame of aging, a writer has tossed old filed in a wastebasket. the Big Seven-Five. Photo by Barbara Newhall

The shame of aging: Tossing stuff out as The Big Seven-Five approached. Photo by Barbara Newhall

By Barbara Falconer Newhall

It’s here. It arrived this week — my birthday, The Big Seven-Five. I am now officially old. And I look it. There’s no avoiding it any more. Ever since my aging eyeballs got their sparkling new, man-made plastic lenses, I’ve been seeing my true self in the mirror. Every last wrinkle, sun spot and neck wobble.

You might wonder, what kind of mental and spiritual preparation [Read more…]

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My Big Brother Loves Me — The Cataract Chronicles Continued

Her big brother took this picture when Barbara Falconer Newhall was a college student. She's wearing glasses and has a bouffant hairdo. Barbara Newhall photo

Big Brother took this photo of me in our suburban Detroit front yard the summer before my senior year in college, long before cataracts could develop. I’m liking that mid-century red lipstick. The Jackie O bouffant, not so much. Barbara Newhall photo

By Barbara Falconer Newhall

My big brother loves me. I’ve always known that, of course. But recently he said it out loud, in so many words.

The second of my cataract surgeries was recently behind me, and I could see pretty well out of both eyes.  My brother and I were sitting across the table from each other at a neighborhood restaurant, and I was managing to read the menu and see my brother [Read more…]

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The Cataract Chronicles: Letting the Light Into That Other Eye

Barbara Falconer Newhall's left eye prior to cataract surgery. Here eyes are brown. Photo by Barbara Newhall

Once the eye has healed, I’m off to my favorite aesthetician for a make-up re-do. Photo by Barbara Newhall

By Barbara Falconer Newhall

Today’s the day! My left eye is getting its brand new bespoke lens, and it won’t be long before I’m seeing the world out of two eyes again.

My right eye is doing just fine, thank you, despite my earlier moaning and groaning over discomfort and general fuzziness. Once that eye is corrected for astigmatism, it will see [Read more…]

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